sick2010

 I'm so nervous I've finally been back on track no binging this week and I also started running but I have to go home this weekend for my b-day with the family. I can't even sleep I'm so worried about it. On top of that I'm turning 21 so extra alcohol calories. Of course my family wants to make a huge deal out of it at some restaurant. I don't want to be around a bunch of people while I'm so fat, I don't want to take any pictures, I don't want to have to go out to eat at meals with them. I want to sit in my apartment like I've been doing all week and watch make me a supermodel, go running, not eat, sit on this website with you guys, and then maybe have a few vodka and diet cokes on my b-day. Oh yes and cigarettes please, fml my family doesn't even know i smoke. Anyways I probably won't be able to be back on here until moday and I hope all of you have a lovely weekend! <33